You are okay. Yeah, college is hard, but it’s not the end of the world. Yes, classes are boring, but it’s going to be okay. I know you miss Jared and your family, and it’s okay to miss them. I know it’s hard to be on your own. There will be nights when everything seems worthless and helpless. But it’s not. College isn’t easy. Being away from family isn’t easy. But you are stronger than you think you are. You’ve already made it this far. Just keep on chugging.
So maybe education isn’t your thing. Give it a shot and see how you like it. Take some art classes, take some science classes, see what you like. You do not have to be a teacher. I know that people have big expectations for you. You feel like you have to get a practical degree and a practical career. It’s okay to be impractical sometimes. It’s not worth it to do what everyone expects you to if it makes you unhappy. You are in control of your own life. You do not have to do anything. You are not obligated to do anything. You are the only one who has to live your life. So do what you want to do.
So, what do you want to do? Forget everyone else!! What do YOU want to do, Lydia? Take charge of your life! You don’t have to just take what’s thrown at you. Heck, when life gives you lemons, throw them back and demand pineapples. Be assertive. Be determined. Be you. Is it really worth it to do what everyone “expects” you to if it makes you unhappy?
You wanna be a teacher? Be a teacher. You wanna be an artist? Be an artist. You wanna be a scientist? Be a scientist! But whatever you do, don’t give up on yourself. Don’t throw away your potential just because you get frustrated.
You are strong. You are beautiful. You are talented. You are smart. You are you, and you have control.
Stop being helpless! Stop being passive! Get of your butt and DO something! If you’re unhappy, do something about it!! Chase your freaking dreams, Lydia!! And for goodness sake, stop doing what you’re expected to do.
You are okay. Now it’s time to learn how to thrive. Learn to be yourself. Learn to take care of yourself. Learn to love yourself.